Confessions of a Christian III

There is this scripture found in Matthew 17:20 where Jesus is explaining to the disciples that because of their lack of faith they could not cast out the demons… he says :

“For I assure you: If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will tell this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you”

Now, here is the thing I am certain I have greater faith then that of a mustard seed. No man can put me under the label of a doubter or question my lack of faith, for faith I have ( maybe not to the same degree as Abraham did who is the Father of our faith Romans 4:16), but I know I have more than a mustard seed. So now with Matthew 17:20 I brought my petition to the Lord and argued that He should heal me, then when it came to mind that I was already healed at Calvary 2000 years ago my petition then became a declaration in order that I should receive the healing that had been granted to me through the resurrection of Jesus Christ and I had scripture to back up every statement I made in my petition……………………………….BUT………………………….nothing.

Instead of seeing some sort of miraculous healing , there was more evidence to show I was getting sicker and sicker. So what had happened? Did my faith waiver? Did I not believe? Even in such a situation no man or creature could ever have accused me of not having faith, I concluded that there must be something not right with my petition but what was it. I took back my petition and took the most medically sound judgment regarding my health, but I did not forget what had happened during that period of spiritual campaigning.

My faith alone could not move the mountain

Today, as I decided to write this blog and confess of my inability to become healed and my failed campaign I noticed something I hadn’t noticed before…. verse 21

“However, this kind does not come out except by prayer and fasting”

I know that this scripture was in reference to the casting out of demons, but I couldn’t help think about my earlier campaigning. Yes, I had biblical evidence and knowledge about the crucifixion to know that the healing was mine and that it had already been given to me, but I was struggling to receive that healing. I’ve explained in a previous post about how when we make a prayer request it is like ordering from Amazon, we have paid for the produce, the receipt we receive online is further evidence that the item is ours however, this item must be moved from a warehouse to our house before we have full ownership of it and within that process we have a tracking number to ensure it arrives well. Our prayer requests are similar, the receipt ie. The Bible is evidence that we own the product requested, however it must be shipped from heavens warehouse to our physicial/ spiritual house. However, here is the thing, I didn’t follow up with prayer or fasting, I knew my healing was somewhere in heaven’s warehouse but I didn’t know who made that healing I didn’t have access to his phone number, I barley looked over His company website nor read the fine prints. Here I was thinking I could walk up to the manufacturers office without an advisor, someone who knows about the protocols of the company and knows the best way to reach the manufacturer, someone who has the manufactures number on speed dial.

I was intending to walk on water without the Holy Spirit. Romans 8:26 says ‘The spirit also joins to help in our weakness, because we do not know what to pray for as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us…’. I had faith to know the battle had already been won but I had forgotten to bring my lawyer with me to court. Prayer is much more than communication to the Father, it is a reminder that without him the impossible remain impossible and it realigns our position to His so that we may be reminded that it is not by our own strength or might that mountains move, it is our remembrance of His awesomeness, a reverance of His majesty and glory , not ours , that makes the moutain move.

me trying to tell the mountain to move

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